roller coaster ride

i'm going home soon & my feelings are tumbling upside down.
i'm excited like a kid but worried like a grown-up.
it's been a roller coaster ride for the past few months.
nobody can fathom what i'm feeling inside.
i came to realize....
it's hard to be an adult.
it's hard when you have to make decisions when your life
will depend on it!
after staying here for more than four years.,
i realized that i prefer provincial life
simple yet fulfilling
but doubts and fears came tumbling
pulling myself down.
how can i survived?
will i make it?
am i gonna be emotionally ready?
how can i face life?
in another dimension i'll go
take the risk & be prepared
i have to be matured enough
not easily hurt & cry no more!

LAKAS NG ISANG AMA

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa lapad ng kanyang mga balikat.
Ito’y nadarama sa higpit ng kanyang mga yakap.

-When we were kids my dad would seldom hug us, whilst we can feel his warm love & care for. As we grow old & part ways he would wrap his loving arms on us. He became more expressive on his love.

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa lagong at lakas ng kanyang boses.
Kundi sa marahan niyang tinig.

-Growing up I seldom hear my dad shouted at us, nor scold, but always slow to speak & slow to anger. He knows how to listen.

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa dami ng kanyang mga kabarkada.
Ito’y sa kung paano siya makisama sa kanyang mga anak.

-My dad became ill when all of us (Girls) went to have our own spaces. I remember my sister saying "He's sad, because we became his kabarkada, & now he has no one (but Dave)."
 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa kung paano siya tinitingala ng kanyang mga ka-opisina. Ito’y sa kung paano siya iginagalang sa tahanan.

-He was always respected, well not always when we were still immature but as the years progress and so our ages & knowledge we learned how to respect him. 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa kung gaano siya katindi sumuntok.
Ito’y sa mapagmahal niyang haplos.

-Dad never raised hand on us. Just spank when we were young.

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa lago ng buhok sa kanyang dibdib.
Ito’y sa laki ng pusong tinitibok ay pag-ibig.

-I know he would lay down his life just to save us from anything. 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa bigat ng kanyang binubuhat.
Ito’y sa mga kabigatang kaya niyang bathin.

-He's always the foundation of our home. 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa dami ng babaeng kanyang pina-ibig.
Ito’y kung gaano siya katapat magmahal sa kanyang natatanging kabiyak.

-Always loyal to our mom. 

Pre-nup

on planning the "BIG DAY"

I wanted a big wedding, I have been dreaming about it since I was a child, . I want all my  family and friends to be there. To celebrate & be happy., afterall it happens once in a lifetime.
I am the kind of person who wanted to please as many people as I can. A people pleaser., so as much as possible I want everybody to come so I won't hurt anybody.

As my life progress I met someone. And that someone is the answer to my prayers. Kind, GOD-fearing, patient, thoughtful, no vices or any bad habit and so on...
We've been in a relationship for a quite a while. Five years to be exact. It wasn't easy because most of the time we are in a "LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP". We only got to spend time together during holidays every 5-6 months since I was working overseas, but our love grew deeper and planned to get hitched.

For five years., we have small talks about our wedding details so we assume that everything will be fine, but things started to be complicated. As what life is about "perplexity" was all around. Small things mattered and a lot of distractions hindered the way.

Because of these, I learned few important things in planning a wedding and I want to share it with you.



1.LISTEN and SPEAK OUT

• Express your thoughts with each other., girls- encourage you future hubby to talk about what he likes, etc. 
• Listen to each others opinion and make arrangements. 
• As much as possible plan and arrange everything together first before getting somebody to help you when needed. After all it's your wedding, remember 'The more people involved, he more clashes of ideas'. 

2. ACCEPT CHANGES of PLANS.

• For me this is the hardest part, talking to myself & making a list of "PROS" and "CONS" is a big help. For example, you want a "Sunrise Wedding" but he thinks it's not convenient, ask yourself what's the advantage? Disdavantages?
• Accept changes and adjustments as light hearted as you can. 

3. CONSTANT COMMUNICATION.

• I mean always! It's a must! Communicate to him as  often as you can. There will loads of changes (Even though you're the most organized person in the whole universe) & simple things that matters that you need to decide. 
• It will keep you both posted on every details of your wedding unless you're in for some surprise!
• It will also help you with monetary issues so you'll not spend much. 

4. THINK AHEAD of TIME

• Anticipate the events " What will happen if... What's the possible solution, etc. but not too much dear. don't stress yourself too much! haha
• At least have a picture in your mind. 
• Don't expect too much! too much expectation will ruin your day. It will not be as perfect as you imagine but it will be fine girl. 

5. PRAY TOGETHER

• This is the most important thing. Pray for each other you need lots of this! and lots of patience.
•  Praying together eases the burden & calms the heart. 

It's not easy but worth everything, after all it happens once in a lifetime unless... 

well that's another story :-)

Anyway, ciao for now! I have a wedding to plan :-D
Wish me luck. 

Hugs! 

Happy Easter

Isaiah 53:5

Gift Of LOVE 

(Please click "Gift of LOVE" for the link of the song)

But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
Isaiah 53:5

https://soundcloud.com/eve-aquino-rubion/gift-of-love-cover-monique-eve 

HOME

just got back from home...
REAL HOME. Where my heart is & will always be. It was the extreme opposite of where  I am living now.
Too rustic, too quiet, calm, luscious green mountains & clear blue skies where earth meets heaven.
I love my hometown., it was the best! I can't think of any place i wanted to be except there...

Living in the city makes me wanna choke---always., buzzling street, too noisy, too crowded & the pollution was killing my physical body. I can't believe I stayed here for quite a while now.,
but i am looking forward to be in my HOME soon. The soonest I mean.
:-)

it's been a while

well hello there! it's been a while., i wasn't able to visit you :-)
i was too busy with my life or should i say., too busy contemplating, procrastinating & introspecting on stuffs going on with my life.
a lot had happen, experiences that made me stronger & small stuffs that made me happy & satisfied.
Life is indeed a journey, just live the day & look forward for tomorrow.
Life's too short to worry & be upset on things that didn't fall into our plans.
as of now., i am gonna think, plan & as always ENJOY!
Thank you LORD for this wonderful life!