C H A N G E

It's been a while. A lot has changed, for the better. I'm married! yay... and I think I'm pregnant :-) hopefully.
It's been 8 months since I said "I DO".

Nr and I live in a country place, a farm which we'll be developing for our extra income.
it has 1 ricefield and a fishpond.

A lot has happened, I can't enumerate.
But I'm happy.

Im so thankful that GOD is always there for me.

roller coaster ride

i'm going home soon & my feelings are tumbling upside down.
i'm excited like a kid but worried like a grown-up.
it's been a roller coaster ride for the past few months.
nobody can fathom what i'm feeling inside.
i came to realize....
it's hard to be an adult.
it's hard when you have to make decisions when your life
will depend on it!
after staying here for more than four years.,
i realized that i prefer provincial life
simple yet fulfilling
but doubts and fears came tumbling
pulling myself down.
how can i survived?
will i make it?
am i gonna be emotionally ready?
how can i face life?
in another dimension i'll go
take the risk & be prepared
i have to be matured enough
not easily hurt & cry no more!

LAKAS NG ISANG AMA

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa lapad ng kanyang mga balikat.
Ito’y nadarama sa higpit ng kanyang mga yakap.

-When we were kids my dad would seldom hug us, whilst we can feel his warm love & care for. As we grow old & part ways he would wrap his loving arms on us. He became more expressive on his love.

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa lagong at lakas ng kanyang boses.
Kundi sa marahan niyang tinig.

-Growing up I seldom hear my dad shouted at us, nor scold, but always slow to speak & slow to anger. He knows how to listen.

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa dami ng kanyang mga kabarkada.
Ito’y sa kung paano siya makisama sa kanyang mga anak.

-My dad became ill when all of us (Girls) went to have our own spaces. I remember my sister saying "He's sad, because we became his kabarkada, & now he has no one (but Dave)."
 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa kung paano siya tinitingala ng kanyang mga ka-opisina. Ito’y sa kung paano siya iginagalang sa tahanan.

-He was always respected, well not always when we were still immature but as the years progress and so our ages & knowledge we learned how to respect him. 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa kung gaano siya katindi sumuntok.
Ito’y sa mapagmahal niyang haplos.

-Dad never raised hand on us. Just spank when we were young.

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa lago ng buhok sa kanyang dibdib.
Ito’y sa laki ng pusong tinitibok ay pag-ibig.

-I know he would lay down his life just to save us from anything. 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa bigat ng kanyang binubuhat.
Ito’y sa mga kabigatang kaya niyang bathin.

-He's always the foundation of our home. 

Ang lakas ng isang ama ay hindi sa dami ng babaeng kanyang pina-ibig.
Ito’y kung gaano siya katapat magmahal sa kanyang natatanging kabiyak.

-Always loyal to our mom. 

Pre-nup

on planning the "BIG DAY"

I wanted a big wedding, I have been dreaming about it since I was a child, . I want all my  family and friends to be there. To celebrate & be happy., afterall it happens once in a lifetime.
I am the kind of person who wanted to please as many people as I can. A people pleaser., so as much as possible I want everybody to come so I won't hurt anybody.

As my life progress I met someone. And that someone is the answer to my prayers. Kind, GOD-fearing, patient, thoughtful, no vices or any bad habit and so on...
We've been in a relationship for a quite a while. Five years to be exact. It wasn't easy because most of the time we are in a "LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP". We only got to spend time together during holidays every 5-6 months since I was working overseas, but our love grew deeper and planned to get hitched.

For five years., we have small talks about our wedding details so we assume that everything will be fine, but things started to be complicated. As what life is about "perplexity" was all around. Small things mattered and a lot of distractions hindered the way.

Because of these, I learned few important things in planning a wedding and I want to share it with you.



1.LISTEN and SPEAK OUT

• Express your thoughts with each other., girls- encourage you future hubby to talk about what he likes, etc. 
• Listen to each others opinion and make arrangements. 
• As much as possible plan and arrange everything together first before getting somebody to help you when needed. After all it's your wedding, remember 'The more people involved, he more clashes of ideas'. 

2. ACCEPT CHANGES of PLANS.

• For me this is the hardest part, talking to myself & making a list of "PROS" and "CONS" is a big help. For example, you want a "Sunrise Wedding" but he thinks it's not convenient, ask yourself what's the advantage? Disdavantages?
• Accept changes and adjustments as light hearted as you can. 

3. CONSTANT COMMUNICATION.

• I mean always! It's a must! Communicate to him as  often as you can. There will loads of changes (Even though you're the most organized person in the whole universe) & simple things that matters that you need to decide. 
• It will keep you both posted on every details of your wedding unless you're in for some surprise!
• It will also help you with monetary issues so you'll not spend much. 

4. THINK AHEAD of TIME

• Anticipate the events " What will happen if... What's the possible solution, etc. but not too much dear. don't stress yourself too much! haha
• At least have a picture in your mind. 
• Don't expect too much! too much expectation will ruin your day. It will not be as perfect as you imagine but it will be fine girl. 

5. PRAY TOGETHER

• This is the most important thing. Pray for each other you need lots of this! and lots of patience.
•  Praying together eases the burden & calms the heart. 

It's not easy but worth everything, after all it happens once in a lifetime unless... 

well that's another story :-)

Anyway, ciao for now! I have a wedding to plan :-D
Wish me luck. 

Hugs! 

Happy Easter

Isaiah 53:5

Gift Of LOVE 

(Please click "Gift of LOVE" for the link of the song)

But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
Isaiah 53:5

https://soundcloud.com/eve-aquino-rubion/gift-of-love-cover-monique-eve 

HOME

just got back from home...
REAL HOME. Where my heart is & will always be. It was the extreme opposite of where  I am living now.
Too rustic, too quiet, calm, luscious green mountains & clear blue skies where earth meets heaven.
I love my hometown., it was the best! I can't think of any place i wanted to be except there...

Living in the city makes me wanna choke---always., buzzling street, too noisy, too crowded & the pollution was killing my physical body. I can't believe I stayed here for quite a while now.,
but i am looking forward to be in my HOME soon. The soonest I mean.
:-)

it's been a while

well hello there! it's been a while., i wasn't able to visit you :-)
i was too busy with my life or should i say., too busy contemplating, procrastinating & introspecting on stuffs going on with my life.
a lot had happen, experiences that made me stronger & small stuffs that made me happy & satisfied.
Life is indeed a journey, just live the day & look forward for tomorrow.
Life's too short to worry & be upset on things that didn't fall into our plans.
as of now., i am gonna think, plan & as always ENJOY!
Thank you LORD for this wonderful life!

Pagkabata....

masarap bumalik sa pagkabata., ung wala kang inaalala. walang isiping mga bagay2. walang responsibilidad. madaling magpatawad. madaling makalimot at mag move on. 
Just like the bible said... 'be like a child'. ang buhay ay nagiging kumplikado habang tayo ay tumatanda... 
simple lng naman ang pananaw natin sa buhay nung tayo ay musmos pa. basta may makain, makapasok sa school, may baon at higit sa lahat magkaroon ng kaibigan. ngunit habang tayo'y tumatanda mas madami na tayong gustong maabot at makamtam. nakakaramdam na tayo ng inggit at paghahangad sa mga bagay na nakikita natin sa iba. naikukumpara natin ang ating mga sarili sa kapwa. 

The power of YOU

Sometimes we don't appreciate ourselves. The word YOU can make you or break you. Choose! Decide! And always be Positive!

Window view part 2

This flowers always inspire me in a way I can't explain.,

Falling Slowly (Once)

Jamming with sissy 

Cover Falling Slowly (Once)

God with us!

My heart was overwhelmed by HIS grace & provision through my journey.
I couldn't express how grateful I am to experience HIS love & overflowing mercy & answers to simple & big prayers. 

I grew up in a poor family, though we don't have enough our parents have taught us to value everything & trust GOD in any circumstance we are. They taught us to be always thankful, to work hard & the most important lesson: "In everything you do, you have to choose the right path. Because in every action there's a reaction. You choose whether you want a good result or the bad one." 

I've learned that this "life's rule" is very important in making decisions & facing life's challenges. It always remind me what to choose & how to do it. 

When I was in my teenage years, I remember wearing the same shoes &clothes over & over again, we're six siblings & my parents salary was just enough for food. We have to look for "sideline jobs" while studying just to get what we want which has helped & taught us a lot in valuing money. 

It was hard & it needs a lot of hard work but GOD is with us through out the journey.
We are now all graduated from university, all teachers. PROUD teachers! Yeah., five of us., all girls.
As I went home for a vacation just this month, I've realized a lot. 

OUR DREAMS are happening now! It's achievable!
We can buy everything we want & we have enough for our self & for our parents. 

We are contented & happy & super blessed for having  wonderful parents & a GOD who's always with us throughout this journey of life.
AMEN

rules,rules & rules.

at work...
rules sometimes suck especially when you can't do anything about it. sometimes rules for other people sucks even though you're not affected by it.
why do I care anyway???
Because it's the most ridiculous rule i ever-ever heard!!!! seriously!

"IF YOU GAIN WEIGHT, YOUR SALARY WILL BE DEDUCTED"
- take note every kilograms or lbs. you'll gain will be counted as 100. (PS. I'm in Asia)  What do they want? Workers who are super skinny? & are not capable to work? or fat ones who are efficient?
NOT only they'll gonna deduct from your salary, but the "monthly weight list" was posted beside the scanning machine where everyone can see who lose or gain weight!!!!!

Duh! good thing it's only applicable for local workers., if that happens to us (Foreign workers) we'll sue them!!!!

So, what's the next possible rule???
let's guess!!!!

Your salary will be deducted because you're ugly? black? flat nose? short? super tall? etc!

I’VE LEARNED…

I've learned...that being kind is more important than being right. 

I've learned...that you should never say no to a gift from a child. 

I've learned...that I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help  

 him in some other way. 

I've learned...that no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a  

friend to act goofy with. 

I've learned...that sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to  

understand. 

I've learned...that simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights  

when I a child did wonders for me as an adult. 

I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper. the closer it gets to the end, the faster  

it goes. 

I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for. 

I've learned...that money doesn't buy class. 

I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular. 

I've learned...that under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated  

and loved. 

I've learned...that the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can? 

I've learned...that to ignore the facts does not change the facts. 

I've learned...that when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that  

person continue to hurt you. 

I've learned...that love, not time, heals all wounds. 

I've learned...that the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with  

people smarter than I am. 

I've learned...that everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile. 

I've learned...that there's  nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling  

their breath on your cheeks. 

I've learned...that no one is perfect until you fall in love with him. 

I've learned...that life is tough, but I am tougher. 

I've learned...that opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss. 

I've learned...that when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere. 

I've learned...that I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her one more time before she passed 

away. 

I've learned...that one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he  

may have to eat them. 

I've learned...that a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. 

I've learned...that I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it. 

I've learned...that when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little  

fist, that you're hooked for life. 

I've learned...that everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness  

and growth occurs while you're climbing it. 

I've learned...that it is best to give advice in only two circumstances: when it is  

requested and when it is a life-threatening situation. 

I've learned...that the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Toil Is Meaningless

Just want to share this very inspiring words from the Bible, it gives me comfort & strength every time I'm reading this. The words will speak for itself, no further explanations.

So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.  I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me.  And who knows whether that person will be wise or foolish? Yet they will have control over all the fruit of my toil into which I have poured my effort and skill under the sun. This too is meaningless. So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun.  For a person may labor with wisdom, knowledge and skill, and then they must leave all they own to another who has not toiled for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. What do people get for all the toil and anxious striving with which they labor under the sun? All their days their work is grief and pain; even at night their minds do not rest.This too is meaningless.

A person can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in their own toil. This too, I see, is from the hand of God,  for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment?  To the person who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

...On Photographing the Moon

I was able to photograph the moon (a night) after the so called 'Blue Moon'. Last night's weather was gloomy & the sky wasn't clear, sooo nothing to see. But thanks GOD, tonight was clear so I grab my camera (D5100 w/ 55-200mm lens) & from my window shot this photos.
Hope you'll like it!

Far view

A different setting 

A closer look

My Students for School Year 2012

 They are the the reason why I keep on going to work everyday.

 An inspiration.

A visit to Rattanakosin Exhibition Hall

Something to PONDER: LIFE in my EYES ツ

Family is something that you should hold close.

1. Love yourself, even if you feel no one else does.

2. Take life as it comes; some of the best laid plans never work.

3. Don’t dwell on your failures, everyone makes mistakes. It’s the way most people end up learning to be better.

4. Try not to be so negative when something goes wrong, you can always try again until you get it right.

5. School isn’t something to be taken lightly, though it might be boring most of the time there are some good things to get out of it.

6. Your voice is powerful, and when you speak people do listen.

7. Listen, even if you aren’t interested, sometimes it’s not understanding that someone looks for, it’s just an ear to talk to.

8. Don’t look back too often or one time when you do you might miss something in front of you.

9. Work towards your dreams no matter how hard it gets.  

10. Every once in a while stop and take a look around.

11. Smile, it doesn’t take much and can brighten up not only your day but everyone else’s.

12. Remember always that family is something that you should hold close. They’ll be there to listen to your problems, cheer you up, and help if they can.

13. Don’t be afraid to speak your mind, sometimes the best said phrases are left unheard. 

14. Don’t try to be someone your not, in the end you won’t feel any better.

15. Laugh, it’s the best part of life sometimes and can often help heal your scars.

16. Don’t worry if you haven’t found that special someone. It’s likely while you look for them, they are looking for you.

17. Get married, or don’t get married, don’t let outside influences force you to do anything. 

18. Travel whenever possible, it’s easy to forget there’s a big world outside of your home. 

19. Enjoy the finer things in life, don’t be afraid to sing with any song you like.

20. Dance when you want to, you don’t need to be good at it as long as it makes you feel good. 

21. You will get old, your music will be “out of date” and your style will be considered “lame”. So remember that when you comment on your parents music, your turn will come.

22. Try not to be hurtful, sometimes when you’re frustrated with someone you can do it without knowing.

23. Do whatever you want with it, just keep in mind we effect everyone around us. Good or bad, right or wrong, even in the smallest sense.

Don’t be afraid to speak your mind.

Family is something that you should hold close.

Travel whenever possible.